I looked around your bedroom wistfully tonight. The cot that we bought from the baby fair two years ago. The changing table that has now developed into a mini-storage area for your diapers and toiletries. The guest bed that we bought for the confinement aunty. The words “Welcome Ellie” still hanging at the side of your wardrobe. The bright and cheery bedsheets that we chose for you.
There are so many memories in this little space. And as I reflect on February, I give thanks for you the most, my cheeky little darling.
Tonight, I did not rush you to sleep…
Tonight, I tried to slow down. Tried my hardest to slow time down, but who am I kidding. 🙂 We had our usual bedtime routine. I kissed you goodnight and pulled the chair up next to your cot, knowing that you needed me with you.
But instead of my usual, “Quick, lie down and sleep.” nagging, I chose to let you play in the cot. Instead of filling my mind with the millions of things I needed to do right after you slept, I sat there and stared at your sweet face. I had to hold back my tears.
In just a wink, you have grown up before our eyes. You can now walk (with the occasional attempt to run), hold a semi-proper conversation with us with actual words, and training you to do a little household chore was a test of my patience but you are now happily throwing dirty clothes into the laundry basket which makes us so happy. 🙂
You cling on to me the most, probably because you spend the most time with me. I can’t help but relish these moments when you grab onto my legs because I know that they are fleeting.
There will come a day when you will not need me so much anymore. There might even be times when it will not be appropriate for me to be around. I know those days will come, but right now – I’m not looking forward to them.
I’m just thankful that in these moments, we have each other.
And I’m also grateful knowing that even when that time comes when you do not need my physical presence as much anymore – Jesus is with you. He takes the best care of you. He takes the best care of me. He takes the best care of all of us – for He holds the world in His hands.
So my heart can rest tonight, for our good God is wrapping us up in His loving presence.
Tonight, I did not rush you to sleep. I watched you play and smile and laugh and be silly. I wiped tears away from my eyes while you watched me…possibly wondering what was going on with your sentimental mama. You – the one who made me a Mum after so many years of waiting – you are special in our eyes.
So tonight I stroked your chubby little fingers as you slowly drifted off to sleep, asking the Lord to show me a glimpse of what His plans are for these hands of yours. These fingers cling on to me now, but will you hold my hands when I get old?
It’s all about HIM
May we steward you according to how He has made you. And may your hands always be an offering to the Lord, sweetheart.
We love you. More than you’ll ever know.
.moments in February.
To end off, here is your desktop wallpaper for March: download HERE & remember that hospitality and love never gets old. 🙂