The Love of God
Valentine’s Day is coming! What are you planning?
Whether you are in a relationship or happily single, this Valentine’s Day – may you remember how much you are adored by our Heavenly Father. 🙂
It was a hot and humid afternoon. I was at City Hall, walking over to the mall to meet Bren for our regular weekday date. I was still studying at the local University and though there was some work pending – it was not top on my list. I just wanted to meet my then-boyfriend for a good meal and a happy time together.
Then it happened.
The start of what would be a few (long) years of wondering what was wrong with my body.
I had cold sweat and felt feverish. My vision became a little blurry which made me anxious and I started having difficulty breathing. I thought I was going to collapse. My feet kept taking steps forward, hoping to reach Bren soon, but the walk seemed so far. Foolishly, I dismissed the discomfort, thinking that it was probably due to the weather.
When I finally met up with him, I was (literally) a hot mess and was too embarrassed to tell him what went on just a few minutes ago. I couldn’t explain it and told myself to schedule a body checkup sometime soon.
A few weeks later
It happened again. This time, I was at the University campus and taking a break with some classmates. My heart palpitated and my mind raced with questions of what was going on with my body. I felt out of sorts, kept perspiring a lot, was a little giddy, but I didn’t know how to talk to my friends about it. So I dismissed it yet again, hoping that these strange sensations would go away on their own.
But they didn’t. In fact, it became more frequent and I felt sickly a lot of the time. My parents were not aware of it. Well, of course no one knew about it because I kept it to myself. There were times when I would feel faint and that made me panic even more. I would have to rest at a corner while strangers walked past. I never knew how to handle it, but life was busy enough to keep me from acknowledging that there was a problem.
Life went on.
It was a struggle. I had to find new ways to cope and it was very difficult on some days, especially when I had difficulty breathing.
One day, it happened in front of Bren and he was so worried as I was not my usual self. Crying helplessly, I finally stopped hiding and confessed that it had been going on for a while. He wanted me to see a doctor about it, but I was reluctant.
We were not Christians then, so we did not know the power of prayer.
The breakthrough came in 2006
I cannot explain it other than it was the miraculous grace of God. After receiving Christ into my life on 7 July 2006, this problem – which I finally learned many years later that it is called “panic attacks” – was gone.
In place of that anxiety and panic, God gave me a new sense of peace and rest. There was no medication, no human intervention. It just happened by the grace of God.
It was such a relief when I stopped having these panic attacks! I cannot praise Him enough for that.
You are so loved
The love of God is so beautiful, my words can never express it adequately. Because of the sheer grace and love of my Heavenly Father, He healed me of my anxious thoughts and insecurities.
Friend, He loves you dearly too and can do the same in your life.
I do not know what you are struggling with today, but I know that every person is created in His image and His heart’s desire is for us to be wholly healed and restored.
This Valentine’s Day, let us remember this love of God that supersedes any kind of love man can offer. It is beyond our comprehension and beautiful beyond description.
Would you welcome this love by faith into your heart and soul today? That would be the best Valentine’s Day gift anyone can receive, and I pray for you to receive only God’s best. 🙂
“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.” (NIV)
Valentine’s Day Coupons
Lastly, because I appreciate all of you dear readers, here is a FREE printable for you to use this Valentine’s Day! I’ve created 4 Valentine’s Day printable coupons for you to use, and 2 empty ones for you to personalize for your better half. 😉
If you’d like more ideas, pop over to my Valentine’s Day Pinterest board for more inspiration!
Sending you lots of love, joy, and hugs this day!
What are your plans for Valentine’s Day? How is the love of God real in your life? Do share!
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