Do you remember the day the news broke about the MH17 crash?
It was 17 July 2014, and we were holidaying in Taipei (Taiwan), celebrating our 4th wedding anniversary in advance.
You care for the land and water it; you enrich it abundantly. The streams of God are filled with water to provide the people with grain, for so you have ordained it.
You drench its furrows and level its ridges; you soften it with showers and bless its crops.
You crown the year with your bounty, and your carts overflow with abundance.
The grasslands of the wilderness overflow; the hills are clothed with gladness.
The meadows are covered with flocks and the valleys are mantled with grain; they shout for joy and sing.
I remember waking up in the middle of the night, turning over to look at Bren who was still awake, scrolling through the news on his phone. He looked serious, so I asked him what happened. He then shared with me about the tragedy.
I didn’t know what to make of it.
I felt so shocked and heartbroken for those families involved, and as I imagined being one of those people being affected…it was like a lightbulb just switched on inside of me – I realized I didn’t want to continue living the way that I was living.
My work was becoming much too stressful to cope with, and there were expectations from the management that pulled me away from my true calling of simply caring for the less-privileged children. Too much administrative matters, too little direct impact on the clients.
That news changed the direction of my heart almost instantly, for I knew deep down that if any of my family members were in that tragedy, I would have regretted the way I was living my days, hardly having much time to spend with my loved ones because I was just so consumed with work.
In that moment, I knew something had to change.
I knew I needed to urgently make a change, but what do You want, Lord?
I prayed, knowing that God is my lifeline, and can always be trusted to lead and guide. 🙂