Even though I had a breakthrough in how I approached the whole conceiving journey, things did not change immediately. I was still not pregnant, people were still bombarding me with insensitive questions, and the desire to have a child was still there.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
Living life to the full
But – my burdens were lifted by the Lord. 🙂 He gave me fresh eyes to see how He was doing something in my life that I could not see. He gave me so many blessings in my current state that I could not help but keep giving thanks for them. He gave me super-sweet friends, colleagues, church mates, who were covering me in prayer and most importantly – my source of joy came from His Word.
I wanted to live my life to the full – after all, God has already provided that fullness in Jesus! I did not want to live a miserable life, pining and whining and complaining. I wanted to live a life that shined for Jesus, a life that gave thanks even in the midst of difficult circumstances. It was never easy, but by His grace, I learned to relax more, and there was a joy that came from surrendering control. It was so much better for our marriage!
We lived our days balancing between family and work commitments, and it was a very simple time of enjoying each other’s presence. We even started watching Hong Kong drama serials which we used to love, and I took more time to just quieten my spirit and rest in the Lord.
God is good, and we learned to be content with whatever life presented, one day at a time! 🙂